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Listening To: Lighthouse Family-Free


You gotta take the good with the bad.
Smile with the sad. Love what you got
And remember what you had

Learn to forgive but never forget.
Learn from your mistakes, but never regret.

People change, things go wrong.
Just remember, Life goes on.


I got this off a 16 year olds frensta page, i mean all credits due and all but i do not think she penned this. And even if she did or not what problems does a 16 year old have to need this kinda words? remember what you had, heck she probably has 6 years of memory? i think our youths are under huge amounts of stress...

Aniwaes i like the words, its very nice and although made to look like a poem its more of a life lesson to walk by. I mean it looks simple enuff, but for each sentence try relating it to life, can u find a good when ur best fren dumps u cause she became attached? can you smile when your loved one is the one thats hurting you? its like the manual is so darn simple but its application is a bitch for a lack of better words..

Aniwaes i think its high time i become like this, i have become very nonchalant recently. I am sick of criticism, i am sick of being the one who is trying to mend things.. I dont mean pissed anger emo or any emotions along that line, i mean sick as in how u just lie there having the illness praying it would go away... i mean i kept this blog as a reminder of my life, yet time and time again i see it being a sad life if i am going to remember my life so sad...

My nonchalance has come at a price... I have managed to just barrel through so many difficulties all facing me at the same time but yet i wonder if i have lost my humanity... I have lost alot of people in my life and they affected me alot, but now i lost the most important one yet, my white one, and my confidante, i mean i have had so many best friends but never someone i pampered and was pampered so much by, judging by this blog alone i can see so many posts where i talked so much about her and how much she has done for me, yet today she let me down....more than any1 i never expected this from you, while people do make mistakes i cannot fathom what possessed you to commit these kinda mistakes...You hurt me, i took it in anger, you tried hurting my frens for your own selfish need, thats when you were kicked out of my life....

I have said this so many times to so many people, if one day she leaves me i dunno how distraught i would be, but i really do not care any more, you were the pinnacle of bullshit i faced in 2007, i mean if ure swimming and u face so much current you fight on and swim but 2007 was like trying to swim without water... i had enough.. and why am i writing this?

I have alot of people whu are questioning who i am and why i have become so emotionless, i am not, they are all there, i am just being immune i guess.. Sum1 special to me leaving me? been there done that...i could have taken any reason for your departure but not that, i mean if we were the ones that made u choose or created problems maybe i could have seen you in a different light but you out of nothing created a division, well done mate..

Words words so many words, but what do i express? you're gone, good bye. i had a lot of respect for you, u killed it, dnt blame me. To those whu question my emotions, try walking a day in my shoes and than comment. i mean all these whims and emotional outburts are just simple things i let the world see, i do not run around telling all my problems out.. So do not judge me if you dont know me.. i am human, as human as any1 can be..... But what this post is to tell people? move on people.. don not let yesteday hold you back.. if u sit in yesterdays pain they call u emo and stupid, u move on they call you emotionless and dumb. either way ure not good enough so let barking dogs bark, u live your life and find whats best for you...

God Bless,
MeL